I want to start off by telling everyone I am still here even though I have not written a little while. I have started a new job and trying to do some other things. I know many of you know I have been writing a book about Mari’s life and the grief journey that followed. The book is done. However, here is where the problem lies. I have found an editor that I believe will be perfect for this book. Unfortunately, the price is quite high for me to pay her. I need to raise about $8,000 to … [Read more...]
Moments
Life can have its moment’s. It’s what you do with those moments that count. I had my security interview this past Thursday. I think it went pretty well. The lady was very nice. It was a nice moment. Then on Friday I headed out with my church group for our women’s retreat. I volunteered to drive the Suburban of one of the women who happened to be driving one of the church’s vans. The weekend was great and I had a really good time. It was a fantastic moment. Then Monday morning … [Read more...]
Women’s Retreat third entry
The start of a new day. It is a beautiful day but to look outside you wouldn’t know it. Our cabin is off the mountain side and you can see all the other beautiful log cabins around us USUALLY. This morning looking outside our bedroom window everything is in a major fog. It is interesting how it can just come and envelope the area like this. Fog is kind of representative of our own lives. Everything can be beautiful and then all of a sudden something happens in your life and the fog can … [Read more...]
Women’s Retreat second entry
I sit here really missing Mari tonight. I brought with me to the women’s retreat her photo album of her last day, I just sat here going through it. I was not really sure if I should bring it or not but was glad I did. Reading that story tonight about that woman who lost her baby brought up all the memories of her last day. I sat here crying as I went through it. I miss her so much and love her so much. I look at those pictures and it brings me right back to that very day. It is still … [Read more...]
Women’s Retreat first entry
Keith and I have been attending our new church. We have really been enjoying it. The church has a women’s retreat that happens to be this very weekend. We left this morning around 9:30am and finally arrived in Tennessee around 5:45pm. I drove one of the other women’s Suburban. Man, that was truly a long drive and my derrière was so incredibly happy once we finally got here (I think it may have even been secretly dancing). I went upstairs and found my room. This cabin is really nice … [Read more...]
The Waiting Game
I sit here at work on my lunch thinking about my upcoming afternoon. I am anxious because of what I must do. I have an appointment at 3pm with a security investigator to get my security clearance. I have to get this for the tentative job I was offered as a government service worker on Fort Knox as a GS-5. I am excited about the new job because I will get to be an administrative assistant again and I will get to quit Wal-Mart. I have been a department manager at Wal-Mart for the past 6 … [Read more...]
Mari’s Book is Done
Mari book is finally done, or at least written I should say. Now starts the editing process. It seems I could go through the book 100 times and find something wrong each and every time. However, to have it really edited so it a great book, I know I need to go to a professional editor to have that done. So I went searching singing all the way, “A searching we will go, a searching we will go, hi ho the search-e-o, a searching we will go.” I did a Google search and ended up coming across … [Read more...]
I’m still amazed…
I am still amazed sometimes when someone tells me they think I am a good writer. I have never thought of myself in this light. To be honest, the only time I have written anything before in the past were for 2 reasons and 2 reasons only: an assignment/paper for school/college or writing in my diary. That was it. I never wrote stories or anything. Then Mari gets sick and I write out for all of our friends and family updates on her progress. Then she dies. I purchase a special journal to … [Read more...]
He’s back…
Keith got home last night after being gone for the last week on a business trip. I really missed him. Our dogs really missed him too. They like to act all goofy and nuts after he has been gone for any length of time. To be honest, they drive us crazy, especially our female boxer. Even though they drive you nuts you love them anyway. There is only one week (technically 6 days now) till our 17 year anniversary. It’s hard to believe it is already that close. Before you know it, you blink … [Read more...]
Not again…
Well, today started off as a decent day. I had to be to work at 7am (no fun by the way). Outside was cold but I didn’t realize just how cold. Even when I started my car to warm it up I still didn’t know. It wasn’t until I got back in my car and heading to work that the temperature gauge in my car showing how cold it was outside at a balmy 3 degrees Fahrenheit outside. When I get to work I park my car on the GM side of Walmart but the doors there were not open yet. So I had to walk to the … [Read more...]