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Joy

Joy can mean so much to so many different people. For me I felt pure joy last night. I spent the day determined to write write write in the fictional book I am writing. I actually wrote 8,472 words and finished the first draft of my novel. Talk about exciting. I think back to how I began writing. It was to keep my friends and family abreast of what was happening to my little baby girl. I started a Care Page. Those first fifteen days of writing were while she was a live and the last day, the … [Read more...]

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The Unexpected Journey – Revised

I wrote this short story a couple of years ago. I have been told it would make a good children's story. What do you think? I would love to hear any and all comments. Thank you.   The sudden darkness hit her like an overwhelming force of nature and seemed to envelope her all at once. Suddenly off in the distance, a small speck of light appeared. It drew her in as if calling her by name saying, “Ariella, follow the light. It will guide you on your new path.” So she did. As she went, she … [Read more...]

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A hole in your heart

When someone close to you dies it leaves a hole in your heart. What I tell people is that a hole was left by our daughter. As the years go by it will get smaller and smaller but it will never completely be filled again until we are in heaven seeing each other again someday. For me, I do not look at the hole as something God is supposed to fill. I think we all have little holes for different tragedies, no matter how big or small, that have happened in our lives. If the hole was to be filled by … [Read more...]

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A Special Sneak Peak

Hello everyone. I have uploaded a special sneak peak for Mari's book. It is the first two chapter's of the book. I am looking for honest feedback from those who are willing to read it. I hope you enjoy it. https://www.createspace.com/Preview/1082508 Here is a preview of the finally chapter as well as possibly making it into a children's book with illustrations. Please tell me what you think: https://www.createspace.com/Preview/1082512 … [Read more...]

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The Tears of Mother’s Day

I sit here in my comfy cozy recliner at about 1am.  I sit here thinking about Mari and knowing that when I wake up in the morning it is Mother’s Day.  I have dreaded it all week.  All it does for me know is remind me that I am a mom without her child on this earth any longer.  I feel childless. I dread going to church tomorrow morning because all they will do there is wish all the mother’s a Happy Mother’s Day.  I mean, don’t get me wrong.  I think it is an important day.  However, it will … [Read more...]

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Missing Her…

I sit here thinking about my beloved angel today and how much she is missed.  I was looking at one of her pictures up on the wall and at how truly beautiful she was at just 5.  Then I started to look at some of her other pictures.  This got me to thinking about what she would have looked like once she was an adult.  I think she would have been one of those adults that when people looked at her they would have thought she had such natural beauty.  Unfortunately, we will never get to know.  All we … [Read more...]

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Winter

Winter has arrived bringing its fury; It’s cold, it’s wet the snow is our blanket Winter is so dreary, it brings about sadness; The sadness no one wants yet it comes any way Winter can be and almost always is depressing; It’s hard to get through when there are so many bleak days ahead Winter seems like it will never end; The days merge one into another Yet one day, the single piece of grass pops through; The green against the white is quite a sight to behold Spring … [Read more...]

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Singing…

January 2 I sit here in church service.  Right away they start by singing.  The tears start to well up and I have to leave.  I still have a hard time just being able to sing in church.  It is so hard for me.  Somehow it just makes me miss Mari all the more.  She would always love the singing portion of church service.  She would sing in her own special way.  She would sometimes flap her arms in excitement.  She truly loved the singing.  I think I just truly miss that with her not here … [Read more...]

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Justin Bieber

December 22 Today ended up starting as a good day.  I felt good about it.  I went to work like I normally do.  I was putting away my freight and I had these Justin Bieber backpacks I was putting out.  As I am putting them out I start to think of my dearest friend Shelly’s daughter Lexi.  Shelly tells me how much Lexi loves Justin Bieber. Then I got to thinking about how Mari would be the same age as Lexi.  Not that Mari would have ever gotten into Just Bieber or anything.  It’s just the … [Read more...]

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Missing the imporant moments

December 13, 2010 I am driving in my car this morning and the roads are kind of nasty from the snow we got yesterday.  I finally plug in my iPhone so I can listen to my iPod. Last night on the way home from work I decided to play Steven Curtis Chapman’s CD “Beauty Will Rise.”  This CD was written and created after the tragic death of his youngest daughter Maria.  Maria passed away on May 21, 2008, only a little less than 2 months before Mari did.  His CD is one of the ways he dealt with … [Read more...]

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