Here recently my writing has been on my mind a lot. However, I’ve been so busy as the new school year has started. I’ve spent the past couple of month planning out the following school year for my niece/daughter as she is in the 5th grade this year. She is such a bright, smart little girl. She is very young for a 5th grader as she is only 9 and won’t turn 10 until the end of October, but you won’t know it if you knew how smart she is and how well she handles most of her subjects (history, well not so much 🙂 ).
God has truly blessed me and my husband by putting Athena into our lives. She is such a happy little girl. She has such a loving and kind heart. I thank the Lord for the gift of being able to raise her.
My husband and I have infertility issues. I think many of you know that already. Our daughter was what I like to call our little miracle. But the fact remains that my husband and I probably won’t be able to have anymore biologically. If the time ever came to where we could adopt I’d love that but the timing needs to be right.
I’ve kind of gotten off topic for why I’m writing today. I’ve missed my writing. My hope is that I will be completely caught up with everything I need to do school wise here in the next week or so and then I can be back to my writing. I want to be able to continue to use this gift God has given me. My hope is that somehow these words that I type out onto the screen can some how touch others. To be completely open and honest about myself helps people to see the real person and not just some person I want people to think I am. To be true to my daughter there can’t be a single bit of fakeness. It would belittle her memory.
As a matter of fact, I went to Otrib yesterday to look at Mari’s dedication page and a note was left from an old friend I went to high school with. I would like to share that here:
“You have put together so many amazing pieces of writing and tributes and pictures, that I feel like I’ve been able to get a little glimpse of Mari, and I just wanted to say thank you for that. The hospital photos speak a thousand words, and I really appreciate that you have allowed them to be viewed by everyone. Your writing makes the whole experience feel all too real, even for those of us who never met her, and the photographs just really bring home the point of all the journal/blog entries. I’m also really glad you have all the beautiful, smiling, happy pictures of her posted. She really did have amazing blue eyes! Man, I have such a pounding headache though, from literally SOBBING for the last two hours while I read through every single blog entry you made on the care page, and everything else I could find that you put together. I was truly touched by what you shared with everyone, couldn’t stop reading, and am deeply saddened by your loss. You’re really onto something with this writing thing. It looks like a talent seriously worth pursuing, a fantastic outlet, and a wonderful way to honor your daughter‘s spirit.”
I remember reading this almost five years ago but to read it again yesterday really touched me. My sincerest hope is that I will be able to continue to honor my daughter.
