December 22
Today ended up starting as a good day. I felt good about it. I went to work like I normally do. I was putting away my freight and I had these Justin Bieber backpacks I was putting out. As I am putting them out I start to think of my dearest friend Shelly’s daughter Lexi. Shelly tells me how much Lexi loves Justin Bieber.
Then I got to thinking about how Mari would be the same age as Lexi. Not that Mari would have ever gotten into Just Bieber or anything. It’s just the thought that Lexi is continuing to get older and Mari is frozen in time at 8 years old. I will never get to see her grow up.
Then I could feel the tears welling up in the back of my eyes. Once I realized I was not going to be able to stop the onslaught of tears that were on their way, I asked where my Assistant Manager Debbie was at over the walkie. She said she was in the backroom. I head there to find her and the flood gates spilled open. I told her what was wrong and we headed to the assistant manager’s office.
I sat there just crying and talking about how hard it is right now with Mari’s 11th birthday coming up. I talked about how much I missed her. How when she was alive that there were times she could just make you laugh and other times you could not stand her. I just said I would give anything to have her back.
Debbie was awesome with just listening. It was something I really needed. Thank you Debbie.
