Are there actually signs or messages from above? Do they actually lead us down a path if we choose to follow? Are they there so obvious that if you choose not to follow it you come to regret that later? Are you too stubborn to follow them because it’s not according to plans we have for ourselves? I think the answer almost every time is a great big yes.

We are all selfish by nature. Of course we think about ourselves and what we think will be best for us. But no matter how great or how grand the vision we have for our own lives, God has something so infinitely more planned in store for us. You might be wondering how I can say this with so much conviction. It’s because if God allowed me to continuing living according to my plan, Mari, my beloved little girl, would still be alive. She would have just turned 14 years old on December 29. But she’s not here and so this isn’t my plan. Or at least it wasn’t.

God had something else planned for my life. He planned for me to be a writer. One who is willing to pour her thoughts and emotions into her writing. By doing this people then relate to what my words say.

So no, this wasn’t my plan, but it is now and I will continue down this road until God shows me a new path to take.