Whether you are a writer or not have you ever had an idea that just goes round and round in your head until you do something about it. As a writer, it might be your story and your characters constantly talking to you. Or maybe a scene that is playing out before you.
For me, I’ve relieved what happened to Mari in the hospital more times than I can remember. It’s something that’s always there and can easily be brought to mind. I think it’s because it will forever be apart of me and is embedded into my memory. In its own way, it’s been apart of my grief journey. It’s how I can somewhat grasp what actually happened those sixteen days over five years ago. Do I wish it had never happened. Well, of course. That’s a given. However, it has and so to continue living my life I had to be able to grasp and understand everything in my own way.
God has given me and ability to write where those words somehow resonate with others. I still shake my head at how this has happened but am ever so grateful for this ability. Writing has become something I love. It’s a passion of mine now.
There are times where I get away from my writing for a little while. It’s kind of like when season change. However, I don’t like it like this. I’d rather be consistent at it as it is so near and dear to me. By writing on a daily basis this helps me to continually move forward with my writing and to grow while doing it.
So yes, it’s like I have a constant DVD going on inside my head. Like a movie reel. Sometimes, I have to put it on pause, but it’s still there. I can play it whenever I need it. If you think about it, that pretty kewl. I’m blessed to have this inside me.