No, I’m not running for office but wouldn’t it be interesting if I did. It’s never been an ambition of mine. First of all, I’d have to get up in front of hundreds of people all the time. No Thank You. Public Speaking has never been my thing. I literally start to shake and my stomachs starts flipping wheelies because I get so nervous. I honestly don’t know how the people who do it do do it.
Even with my fear of public speaking, I’ve had something leaning on my heart in the last year or so that, man, if I were to really start doing this, I can’t imagine how my body might react. I’ve been feeling more and more lead to start speaking to women. I don’t mean one on one either. I mean, you know, talking in front of a group of women and telling them about my life. Sharing with them everything that has happened in my life to make me who I am today as a result.
My life has been anything but easy. However, I know God has allowed all these terrible things to happen, to include the beloved loss and tragedy of losing my daughter, my one and only child, when she was only 8 years old. Losing a child is always said to be the hardest loss one can go through, and I have to agree. Through all the things I’ve been through in my life, losing my daughter has been hard, yet hard can’t even full describe the depth of it. It strikes you to your very core. You have an ache that feels like will never go away. Yet, over time, the ache dulls. Does it ever fully go away. No. I know that it never will. However, it becomes to the point where it is no longer all-consuming.
I can look to heaven and know my daughter is up there. I like to think of her as my little angel who watches over me. Do I know that she isn’t an actual angel. of course. But I still like to think of her as one. She was my precious baby girl and I will forever miss her. I thank the Lord for her everyday and giving me the honor of being her mommy.