I once had a dream I had written down about Mari, my beloved little angel. I wrote this as a movie clip of what I envision Mari’s Wedding Day could one day be like. No, she was not like a typical child and this dream probably would never have come true but I knew that one day the home business I had would be able to help me at least give Mari all the best care and education I could. We all know that Mari’s time was cut extremely short but here is the dream I had for my little angel…

We are in the year 2022. It is Saturday, June 18th at 4pm. It is Mariana’s wedding day. The sky is clear blue with a couple of beautiful white puffy clouds and it is 75 degrees outside. There are some blue birds flying over head as we drive up in a 1969 convertible white walled tired car.
She is carrying her white rose bouquet with a couple of white lilies, carnations and tulips. Around the stems are beautiful silk ribbons weaved together with the excess flowing freely. She is wearing a snow white gown. It reminds you of Cinderella. It has embroidered flowers and lace all over the gowns skirt. It is a sleeveless gown in a heart shaped bust line. It has laces instead of buttons up of the back of the dress. She is wearing white gloves that go up the entire length of her arms. She chose ballerina type slippers for her feet instead of shoes. The train on her dress is 8 feet long. There are two little girls who are there just to help her with her train. Her veil starts with a small princess type crown on her head. The ends of her veil have small pearls attached. The front of the veil goes to about her waist and the back goes the full length of the gown in the back.

I am sitting in the car with her. I have on a light pink and white floor length gown on. It has a solid pink ½ length type jacket on that goes just below the bust line. The dress has white baby rose buds on it. The slit goes up my left leg up to my knee. I am wearing a pink and white rose corsage with baby’s breath and one green leaf attached to my jacket.

One of the groomsmen opens the door for the two of us when we arrive at the church. The photographer is there taking pictures of us. We go into the Bridal room and wait for the wedding to start. Keith, Mari’s daddy, walks in and starts to tear up (which he never does). He tells her what a precious moment this is and will always be treasured. He takes her head in his hands and kisses her forehead. He leaves the room and I have my alone time with her. I sit there with her reminiscing of the days when she was young and how they seem just like yesterday yet so long ago.

The pastor opens the door and says its time. So, I grab her head in my hands and kiss her on the forehead. I tell her how very proud I am to have been her mom and so proud of the woman she has turned into. The man she is going to marry is one lucky guy to have her.

I leave the room and close the door behind me so she can have her last couple of moments to herself. I go to the door to the sanctuary where my husband gives me a hug and kisses me on the mouth and tells me how much he loves me and how good of a job we did in raising one very special little girl.

All the guests are seated now. The groom’s mom, who is in pink and light gray sparkly dress, was taken down the aisle to her seat. An usher comes to me now and asks if I am ready as this signifies the starting of the wedding. I say, “I am as ready as I ever will be.” I take his arm and I am escorted to the first pew on the left hands side.

At the end of each pew are white and pink real flower arrangements with either a pink or white satin bow below the flowers that alternate. I am now seated and it is now time the groom’s mom and myself to light the two smaller candles for the trinity candle. We go to the front of the church arm in arm. We each light our candle with one representing the bride and one the groom. Mari and her groom will later take the two candles and light the middle Trinity candle signifying that they have become one by becoming husband and wife. We hug each other and sit back down.

The candle lighters, there are 4 of them, now come forward and light the 200 candles that are at the front of the church. There is a harp, 2 chellos, 2 violas, and 6 violins that play the wedding music.

The groom now comes out of his room and stands beside the pastor. The music for the bridal party now starts. There are 8 bridesmaids and 8 groomsmen. They all walk down together. The bridesmaids are in floor length solid pink dresses. The bodice is heart shaped that ties up the back just like the bride’s gown. They have thin straps instead of being strapless. It is a skirt and top. The skirt is a flowing skirt. It has a very small train, maybe a ½ foot in length. They have pink and white bouquets that look just like the bride’s only smaller with pink and white ribbons around the stems. The men are in solid black tuxes with one white strip going down the side of each leg on the outside. They have a pink rose boutonniere attached to their left lapel. They are wearing a pink vest with pink ties. The groom is in a solid white tux with tails with one black strip going down the side of each leg on the outside. He is wearing a white rose boutonniere attached to his left lapel and is wearing a white vest with a white bow tie.

Two of the candle lighters now go back to the front of the church and grab the white isle runner and roll it out. This now signifies bride is coming. The flower girl now comes down the isle with the ring bearer. She is in a floor length white princess type gown. She has a little tiara on her head and her hair is full on blond golden ringlets. The ring bearer is in a miniature tux that looks just like the grooms.

The stringed instruments begin to play the bride’s song. The doors reopen and now she is standing there with her daddy. She now has the veil over her face. She is beaming from ear to ear while having tears in her eyes. They now start walking down the aisle. She looks so beautiful. She has the grace and presence of anyone you could imagine. She makes it to the front and the pastor asks, “Who gives this bride to this man?” Keith answers, “Her mother and I do.” He lifts the veil up high enough just to give her a kiss and places it back down. He squeezes her hand and comes to sit down by me.

I know the ceremony lasts for about 30 to 40 minutes but it seems to just go by so quickly. I watch her say her vows and exchange her rings. Songs were sung and tears flowed freely. Her daddy and I even sang a beautiful love song to her in dedication of her new life with her new husband to show her how much her daddy and I loved her and were so happy for her.

Finally the end was near and the pastor said, “I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may now kiss your bride.” The groom lifts Mari’s veil over head and kisses her ever so sweetly, so gently, so precious and you can just imagine what it looked like. Our daughter is now married. She has now officially started her new life. We love her so much and will miss her being at home but we wish her all the best.

I hope you have enjoyed the dream I once had. Even though this will never come true, I am glad I have the memory of it in my head.