December 6, 2010
Missing Mari, what does that really mean anyway? It means you think about her. For me it means all the time. I don’t know if I’ve had a day without thinking about her at least once.
Of course as we get closer to her 11th birthday, it seems more and more often. Thinking about her leads to missing her. Missing her leads to the ache I feel in my heart. In the end, this leads to wishing she was here.
Everyone says she is in a better place. Even Keith thinks this as it helps him with his grief. For me, I guess I am just selfish and I say, “Great, but I don’t care. I want her back with me.”
I look at a picture of her and just miss her so much.