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Kristena Tunstall > Poetry > Free Form > I Died

Posted on April 12, 2010 By Mommy's Angel in Heaven

I Died

The day I died is a day I will never forget

There was nothing but emptiness and what seemed like utter despair

It seemed to envelop me like a black cloud unable to see or breathe

No one knows how they will die or if they will ever get to live again

I did not know what to do as all I saw was the blackness around me

The day I died was the day a new person became born and took my place

Time seemed to stand still until one unexpected moment, one unexpected day

Something was off in the distance; I had to blink twice to make sure it was there

Could this be a small spec of light, the first light of my new birth, my new life

Yes it is, it brings forth a small ray of hope, a glimmer of anticipation for what lies ahead

As the days go by the light doesn’t seem to get bigger as it is growing ever so slowly

Then one day I notice the light has become bigger as it is no longer a small spec but rather a guiding light to take me on my new path, my new life

I start to feel alive again and like this life is worth living

The days go by and I have setbacks, but they become fewer and farther apart

The light is now brilliant and truly magnificent

It can be exactly what one needs in their life if they are willing to follow it

 

Moving Time...

May 13, 2010 Mommy's Angel in Heaven 8
Well, the move is finally done. They packed up our house last month on the 14th, moved it out on the 15th, left for Kentucky on the 19th, ended up having an abscessed tooth from a root-canal from over four or five years ago, had oral surgery on the 22nd, finally started…
 

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April 10, 2010 Mommy's Angel in Heaven 5
I sit here in our car as Keith and I are driving to DeKalb one last time before we move to Kentucky. I have nothing to write on at the moment so I took some brown napkins from my glove compartment to use instead (I guess they're not just for…

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  1. Tiffany Grove Hidey says

    April 12, 2010 at 11:53 pm

    That is really pretty kristina..

  2. Tracy Schultz-Paradowski says

    April 13, 2010 at 12:07 am

    You should write that book … this is awesome

  3. Kristena Patton Tunstall says

    April 13, 2010 at 11:37 am

    Thank you so much

  4. Mommy's Angel In Heaven says

    April 13, 2010 at 11:37 am

    Thank you so much

  5. Tracy Schultz-Paradowski says

    June 19, 2010 at 12:07 am

    You should write that book … thisis awesome

    • Mommy's Angel In Heaven says

      June 19, 2010 at 10:37 am

      Tracy, thank you so much. I promise I will.

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