It seems that sitting in church, like I am now, seems to be a place where I feel I can open up so freely and easily. I am so grateful and excited to be going back to church and finding one that Keith and I feel at home with. I know that it is God who has been nudging our hearts to find a new church home. It just has been hard grieving as much as we have and having anger issues. But it feels good to be around fellow believers as we are now.
I think now I am going to seek out another woman to help disciple me as I need the help and leadership to grow. I believe doing all of these things will help me get closer to God.
Keith and I are also going to start meeting with the church pastor on a weekly basis. This will be good for the 2 of us and our marriage. Most of you do not know, as this is very personal, we have been struggling. The death of Mari has taken a toll on our marriage. The one man on this earth I love above all else is someone I could not imagine my life without. Yet, we are not happy. I know meeting with the pastor will be good for our marriage and make us stronger both together and individually.
I am so grateful to be able to start going to church on a regular basis. Thank you Jesus for everything you are doing for us. We still may not understand why Mari was taken from us but we know you have a plan and purpose for us.